Leaving my 9-5 after ten years on the job, was just one of many hard life choices I had to make. My dad always told me to keep a job. So when I put my two weeks in I questioned myself over and over. Was this the right thing to do? What will my next move be? How am I going to take care of things without a steady income? Like I said alot of thoughts. The one thing I knew for sure, my family needed me at that moment more then my 9-5, and I had to do what I had to do.
Once it was official and coming up to my last day on the job, I was in denial. I started to doubt what I was doing, and made it seem as if I needed this 9-5 to continue to have a steady income. In some ways this is so very true, however I had to believe that what I was doing was a start to me getting things in order (routine) with my family, and also so that I can push myself further preparing for my role as an entrepreneur, along with already being a caretaker, mother, and wife.
This journey as an aspiring entrepreneur is not easy. Of course I never said it would be easy. There are so many moments where I have said Fuck this, let me go back to a 9 to 5. I can’t do this. My resume is still up and available on most common work sites. I have had several job offers, and opportunities to work, however with the assurance and trust of my husband that I do not need to go back to work, I have turned them all down. That helped ease my guilt of not providing after my nut shell started to run low.
I allowed family and friends to say things to me and make me feel as if what I did was very stupid, and I needed to go back to work, like an employee. In ways I felt that what everyone was saying was true. Then I started reading more and focusing on MY mental health. I needed to go back to the drawing board. If I did not want to have an employer I needed to successfully employ myself. Become self made.I knew with all the success over the past 10 years with my former employer, that I was going to be alright. Anything I put my hands on becomes my master piece. It was just I wanted my success now and not later. I knew I would have to apply myself more to achieve the level of success I want. I allow still, most life issues to determine what my next move will be. I have to release my mind from doubt and continue to TRUST. My Truth always believe in YOU. Nobody else will feed you and uplift you like you should and can. Yes positive people is always an up in your life, but self love is always the best love, and if you don’t have self love how can you love on anybody else. Take a minute and marinate on that. #My Truth